to explain

Posted under Uncategorized by mel

alright already! i realize that i haven’t been writing and i finally have the strength to give an update/explanation.

i would like to preface the following with a caveat:

i am not pregnant (yet/that i know of). when i am, i will tell you all

alright so recently i stopped taking oral contraceptives/old vitamins and have replaced both with a mega pre natal in preparation for becoming pregnant IN A FEW MONTHS (note: NOT NOW). because of this, my hormones have been way out of whack and i have been mildly depressed. i have been sleeping a lot more and have had almost no energy. i have noticed that i feel exhausted after faking enthusiasm for a couple of minutes because it takes so much effort.

i am slowly feeling better every day and know that in a few weeks i will be readjusted.

i just beg of everyone to be patient with me right now and not to get upset if i don’t update here/call/email/hang out/anything else. *lol* ahem, sarah: “it’s not you, it’s me. seriously though, all i want is to be left alone. just typing this entry (for 3 minutes) has made me tired and a little sad. i don’t want anyone to take my bad mood personally (as i have been made aware that at least 4 people have already). please please please know that it isn’t anything that anyone has done but just a rough patch that i will be over in a couple of weeks.

one last thing: i DO NOT want to talk about any of this on a one on one basis! i know several of you will want to contact me to try to help, but realize that this will only make things worse as it will exhaust me trying to make you feel like you’ve helped me so that you don’t feel bad. only time can help.

ps sorry if i sound mean in this. i am really trying to be nice, but i am just really unbalanced right now.