and what a 3rd posting today it is!

I GOT AN INTERNSHIP! HALLELUJAH! FINALMENTE!

the only problem is that i have to go out of state to do it. i’ll be away from home for 15 weeks. but, after i’m done, i will then have a world of opportunity ahead of me. just need to tough it out.

i’ve noticed something very adaptive in my decision making. whenever things don’t go as planned, i might get nervous at the prospect of doing it another way, but soon i am off raving about all the positive possibilities that the new scenario may bring. internship=case in point. i didn’t want to go out of state, but there are so many good things that can come of it. another time=when i was in high school, i applied for an exchange program to france. i wasn’t placed in a family there, but a family in italy wanted me. for the first 3 minutes i was like “i don’t speak italian!” “*whine* but i want to go to france!”…and then i switched over to all the cool things i could do there. i could eat tons of pasta. i could see the leaning tower of pisa (which i did!). i could meet guys in the mafia and ride in a gondola.

i love the fact that i don’t dwell on the negative of the future but that i see it for it’s possibilities rather than what i feel is unfair.

*phew* wow, that was a nuts trip.

etsy

someday i will get some pretty pictures from etsy. the following artists are amazing:

for nursery art:

prediction?

i got some tarot cards for my birthday and i’ve been playing around with them a lot lately. (working part time will do that to a girl) i was recently looking up some fun spreads to try out and came across this one. now, i don’t take tarot too seriously. actually, i’m the type of person that will ask the same question and do as many spreads as it takes to get the answer i want so it worries me that presidents might be chosen this way. gersh.

music

recent bands i’ve been devouring:

someone still loves you boris yeltson (best track=think i want to die)

harry and the potters (*lol*)

delerium (who will be in portland sept 12!)

midlake (best track=roscoe)

imogen heap (best track=speeding cars)

camera obscura (all good tracks!)

bic runga (again, all good tracks)

11/21

ixnay on the asalbay

so i’ve given up charting my basal body temp. i just don’t think it’s going to work for me. even though i had a good thermometer, wake up faithfully at the same time every morning, and followed the guidelines of checking and charting before doing anything else (even shutting off the alarm), the data was not consistent.

i think what happens is that some nights i have slept with covers and others not. some nights i wear shorts/tank top, others pants/tee shirt. my temperature is not track able because of these extraneous variables. i am sure that i could control for them, but i cannot control the weather. some nights it is window open for a fresh brisk breeze, others it is a bit too chilly.

so that ovulation plan is going the way of the dodo. i think we will just buy an ovulation kit when we start to try for kids. kinda sucks because this could have been an inexpensive way to chart my fertility for several months before hand. ah well, thems the breaks, eh?

kanesodfinv!!!!!

yum

ice cream machine is the best neopets game ever

cupcake party!

*******pregnancy update********

i am going to start monitoring my basal body temperature so if anyone has done this, could you let me know if it worked for you? i read a lot about it (mostly from this and this site) but could use any advice you might have for ensuring accurate results.

*******end update*************

wow. so my birthday is next wednesday and we had planned to invite my sister/her boyfriend/his daughter and my brother/his girlfriend. a small little family deal. well, yesterday at work i was joking around with my coworker, hallie, and she asked me to hang out with her.

woah. this does not happen often. or it didn’t used to. sure, i’ve had friends, but more acquaintances than anything. i have never been super ms. popular (except when i was one of the only females to work at a pc tech support center *lol*). anyhow, i decided to go out on a whim and invite her. she was super excited as i explained that i was dressing up in a costume and decorating cupcakes (i got an early gift—cake decorating supplies!)

so hallie is in and will be coming as peter pan. today though i decided to ask ruthie, another awesomely awesome chica, to come to. she was super excited as well and wants to dress up like harry potter since her hair is too short to be hermione. the next thing i know, kyle, the owner’s son, gets all excited about my birthday because i said my costume will be yuna from ffx and that’s one of his favorite games…so i ask him to come. later on, i invited leah to come and she became giddy and asked me tons of questions about costumes!

*lol* i friggin love portland! as it stands, there will be close to 15 people coming. i can’t believe it! maybe it is portland or maybe it is just me giving people a chance, but i don’t think i have ever been so confident socially before. i mean, these people are so much like me. they don’t get annoyed when i talk about conservation or jealous that i am so crafty. on the contrary, they discuss what they are doing to be more environmentally aware and showing me their projects too!

wOOt for portland!

party list

costume-

hand made invitations

food-

1. hummus/pita

2. mini pizzas

3. CUPCAKES!

4. beer/punch

5. fruit salad

6. 7 layer dip/chips

7. Christopher’s special baked tacos

8. tabbouli

hmm…might need more…if anyone has suggestions, send them my way! i’m looking for finger food type recipes.

he said/she said

I have always cried when I’m happy and have always felt embarrassed about it.  Sometimes the simplest things are so amazing that I can’t handle it and shed a tear or two.  I read a quote today that made me feel a lot better about it.:

“Beauty of whatever kind, in its supreme development, invariably excites the sensitive soul to tears.”- Edgar Allen Poe

And this is just a cool quote:

“A woman is like a tea bag- you never know how strong she is until she gets in hot water.”- Eleanor Roosevelt